"She"

She lives with confident.
She lives with satisfaction.
No regret in her life.
But still...
she just an ordinary girl.

who fear of her own shadow.
afraid of being herself at all.

Why?

Simple question. 3 letters word with a question mark at the end. It needs reason. It want an answer. An Answer that will reveal all the secret behind the unsolved mystery. A truth that has never been ask. No one will use this "killer" word just to know the lie?! "WHY?" Because everyone... everyone want the truth, yet the truth is so hard to be spoken.
She is a great actress who plays a magnificent part. She just has to name it and everything will go just like she planned. Flow with the rhythm and dance with the beat. Ask her to speak in front of thousand people. She'll do that. Ask her to do bungee jumping. No fear. As long as she can do that, she will. A woman oh her heart, so sure of herself, so confident, so brave but yet..

What's wrong with her life? She got friends who always there for her. She got people whom she always knew will support her... accept her the way she is and stand by her side. True friends. Is it so difficult to be grateful?

She just scared...

Afraid of her own reflection.

Part of herself that has never seen by others.

A biggest secret of her life, that she hopes no one will figure it out.

Something she really hate to admit, yet she still a human being.

her WEAKNESSES.

Do whatever you want.

She bet you'll have the negative impression of her right now. Do whatever you want. Think whatever you want to think. Speak whatever you want to speak.
But...
This is her. One and only her. A subject of the story of her life. The main character of his own world.
She knew she is not perfect. BUT. She'll make something perfect. She'll make sure that. That's the only way that she could forget the fact that she still imperfect. Still a human being, with fear. Fear that she always try to overcome. Overcome the weaknesses.

What's perfection means for her?

Perfect. Perfection is a satisfaction. Now? She still not satisfied because something is still bothering her mind.

Little helping hands.

She got friends.

There's "someone". Someone whom she always think about but yet always has negative thoughts about him so that she might not get hurt. She knew that he will never do what she thought he might he might because...

He take care of her, no matter what.
He accept her the way she is.
Believe in her.
Trust her.

"It's amazing how he can speak right to her heart. Without saying a word, he can light up the dark. Try as she may, she could never explain when she hear he don't say a thing."

"The smile on his face let her know that he need hers. There's a truth in his eyes saying he'll never leave her, The touch of his hands says he'll catch her whenever she fall. He say it best when he say nothing at all... "

She knows... but is it wrong if she does not want to get hurt?
Is it wrong to be afraid of losing someone?
Is it wrong to think that someone might walk away from her life for good?
Is it wrong to feel worry?
Is it terrible to think it that way?
Why not... if it does happen, she might not get hurt. But...
Is it RIGHT to think it that way??
She will not get hurt but others will.

She never expect that he will stay be by her side, help her to get through the pain and sorrow. She thought that he might leave her. Let her walk alone in the dark, searching for the light. No! She don't. But... he does. He does whatever a friend did.

She always thought how much she has put such a burden on him. Something she can never pay back... Because she thought she has never done anything for him.

"Them". Special friends. True friends who taught her the real value of having friends by her side. Never leave her alone. But still... she is afraid.

What if she done a terrible mistake?
What if they don't like her anymore?
What if something bad or humiliating happen to her?
Will they accept her?
Will they stand by her side.

Yes... they will.

So?

She is not sure why...

You can't have anything, but there's something you can value.

Is she she being greedy? Ego perhaps? Hahahaha! You can think she's pathetic, annoying girl.

She's kind of person who will never ever let go something she love. She'll fight for it. She value her friends... To be honest, she is so happy with her life since she met them. She love them with all her heart. And she is so thankful for that. :)

At present.

She talked to them. They made her realize. She must be a realistic. Throw away the mask that she had wear for a long time. Stop running away. Face the world with courage. And she realized, there's still a hero lies in her... and by her side.

No one is perfect. No one. There's a still room for improvement. There's still hope and strength inside her to cast her biggest fear aside. Now she's proud to say that...

. I'm not perfect . I LOVE being imperfect.
. That makes me special .
. My weakness is my strength .
admit how much...
"I LOVE THEM"

Smile always. That makes you perfect.

"Someone" is there for you.
"They" will always stand by your side.

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear.